Every interaction has an outcome. This outcome can be positive or it can be negative. I’ve thought a lot about my interactions over the past year and how many have been lackluster. I think about the time my husband asked me to watch a movie with him and I decided to read instead… a lost opportunity to have a shared experience. I think about the time my daughter asked me to play cards with her and I declined… a lost opportunity. What was I thinking? How many more times will she ask? I think about the countless times I have been in conversation and have been distracted by a text or email. How rude was I? Unfortunately, this was more the norm than not. I was not showing up in 2019!
A new year, a new decade! This is the perfect time to reflect and decide how I want to show up for in 2020. While I am not yet sure what my actual goals of 2020 are, I do know I want to show up each day. By show up, I mean showing up to each interaction with intention. I want to learn from other people’s experiences and words. I want to speak less and listen more… which for anyone who knows me, knows this will be a great challenge! I want to ask better questions and stay curious.
While I want to speak less, I want to find my voice through writing. This scares me and creates a great sense of vulnerability. Sharing your words, your art, your thoughts, any part of yourself is a scary thing. A vulnerable thing. So I am going to show up with intention and vulnerability. I hope my increase in posts will lead to more dialogue. Up to this point, our blog has remained a “small” project. It took me over a year to share our few posts. In 2020 that is going to change.
I would love to reflect and share my experiences this year, but I also want to hear from all of you about your experiences. Brene Brown writes, “there is nothing more vulnerable than creativity… It’s not about winning, it’s not about losing, it’s about showing up and being seen.” How are you showing up for 2020?